Friday, January 29, 2010
I finally decided to go to an acupuncturist. I’ve been depressed and I just couldn’t handle it anymore. I contemplated going back on an antidepressant, but when I weighed the benefits against, the risks, I decided to try this first. I’ve now been two times. While I can’t say my depression is completely better, I can say I feel more relaxed than I have in a long time. She really helped me put things in perspective. She pointed out that there is no physical pressure for me to be pregnant right now. The pressure of NOW that I feel is internal. She was also very positive. She said that she is convinced that I can and will have another baby, but it just might not be right now. A few weeks ago, the message at church was also on waiting. I think God has been speaking to me, and His message is finally starting to take hold. The great news is I don’t feel as anxious as I did. I haven’t been charting or using ovulation predictor kits; in fact, I don’t think I am going to using either for a while. I’m still keeping track of things, but I am trying not to obsess. I can’t tell you how huge this is for a control freak. I have been really proud of myself.
Posted by Jess at 11:35 PM
Sunday, January 3, 2010
We started off the new year watching a bowl game at a friend's house. One of our friends has a beautiful eight month old baby girl. I watched my son as he snuggled up to her, and my heart melted. When she cried, he offered her his precious night-night. He has been constantly talking about babies, so I asked him if he wanted a little brother or sister and he said "yes please." I know he will make a great big brother. I hope that sometime soon, his wish and my wish will come true.
Posted by Jess at 10:14 PM